Why is this so SCARY?

Why do I keep procrastinating?

These were the questions circulating in my head over the past few weeks and I couldn't figure out how to answer them.

Following these questions would inevitably be something along the lines of:

Well, you will be good enough to start this when ___________ . Right now you're just not good enough/smart enough/etc... at ____________ .

Well it's now almost the end of 2015 and I am finally about to hit GO on a project I started drafting back in August. Why it has taken this long is something I don't like to think about too much because it means I still struggle with being "good enough".

So what changed?

Well, first, I no longer have an excuse. I can't put it off due to other pressing needs. Due to life circumstances I currently find myself in the (nearly) perfect position to get this thing started.

For this I feel thankful. Yet I also know I could have started this a lot sooner. And who knows where it may have been by now.

As Earl Nightingale said in this famous quote,

“Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.”

The time did pass and I find myself at a point where the internal pressure to get this dream started is about to POP.

So HERE I AM.

So as Sheryl Sandberg famously said in the book Lean In (by the way one of the best books I've ever read and would strongly recommend),

“What would you do if you weren't afraid?”

Well Sheryl, this is what I would do if I weren't afraid and I am about to start despite me fears.

I'm choosing to GO and I'm glad to have you here with me.